I stared at my mom in dismay.
“You can’t do this to me,” I said.
“I’m
sorry, dear, it’s just one of the things you have to put up with in
life. Besides, all your aunts will be there and they want to see you.”
“If
they want to see me they can always come home,” I grumbled. My mom
pretended not to notice. I stomped back to my room, muttering curses
under my breath, and slammed the door behind.
I had to attend my
‘distant’ cousin’s wedding. Worse, I had to wear a sari! Give me jeans
and a sweatshirt any day, but a sari? I’d be tripping and falling over
it a dozen times before we even reached there. I sulked and pouted for a
week before the wedding, behaving typically like a teenager, and not
the twenty-three-year old I was. My mom’s reaction to it was just two
words. “Grow up.”
I don’t know why it irritated me more that she
was right. Maybe being right all the time comes as a side-effect of
gestation? If so I can’t wait to have children, so I could advice
someone who’d at least listen to me. But if they are going to be
anything like me, I doubt that.
Anyway, the whole marriage thing
just freaks me out. At my age, marriage was akin to claustrophobia. I
hate being told what to do or being dependent on anyone. Like most smart
girls, I saw marriage as a lifetime imprisonment, a millstone around
the neck, a violation of my freedom, etc. One-fourth of those who got
married got divorced anyway, so what was the point? And arranged
marriages are so archaic. The whole concept of marrying because of
matching horoscopes seemed silly to me. I mean, what if the person you
married was a chain smoker and you married him without knowing it? Or
what if he snored in bed or frowned upon the books you loved or movies
you liked watching? Or if you two have absolutely nothing in common to
even talk about and are bound to each other for the rest of your lives?
It would be like putting a scientist and a punk artist together. But I
kept my thoughts to myself, so as not to give a heart-attack to my
grandmother and aunts, who couldn’t wait to marry me off, like a
particularly nasty cold they wanted to be rid of. Fat chance of that
ever happening, I promised myself.
I was rudely woken up by my mom
from a wonderful dream, involving me dancing in the rain with Shah Rukh
Khan, at four o’ clock in the morning on Sunday. Which idiot ever
decided to fix the wedding on a Sunday? My mom turned a deaf ear to all
my whining and complaining, punctuated by yawning every few minutes, as
she helped me put on the sari. I reflected on how it would take me two
minutes to pull on a salwar as opposed to the twenty minutes it took to
fold and twist and wrap the green sari around my body. If I ever got
married, I had to wear a sari for every bloody occasion. Another excuse
to my list of why-not-to-marry excuses.
I wore a pretty silver
chain and small studs on my four-times-pierced ear lobes, which my
grandmother always found as an excuse to criticize. I refused
point-blank to wear the heavy gold necklace and the matching dangling
earrings she took out from the locker. She gave a
what-has-happened-to-the-girls-of-today sigh and kept it back safely in,
advising me to wear it at least for my marriage, which I promised her I
would. If I ever gotten married.
I slept through the drive in the
car, and woke up with a jolt when it came to a halt in front of the
marriage hall. I looked out the window. It was only 5 o clock in the
morning. The sun hadn’t even come up yet! The last time I’d been awake
this early was during my last semester exams.
“Take that frown off
your face, and put on a bright smile, dear,” my mom said as she got out
of the car. “Anyone would think we dragged you here in chains.” She
looked lovely, despite her age, I admitted. Her chocolate brown colour
sari swept around her like a ball gown, and made her look years younger.
I plastered a wide smile on my face and said, “Is this bright enough for you?”
She
was not impressed one bit. “You are only making a fool of yourself,”
she said in that maddening, mom’s-always-right tone again. My dad,
dressed in a silk dhoti and a light brown shirt, gave a non-committal
shrug, stifling a yawn, and took my mother’s hand as he led her in. He
too would have preferred to spend the day lounging in the sofa, watching
a cricket match. I knew he at least sympathized with me.
The
smile on my face turned to a grimace as I was greeted by ear-splitting
music that blared from the five-feet-tall speakers on either side as I
entered. I stuffed my fingers in my ears till we passed the speakers,
and then heaved a sigh of relief. Boy, if this was their way of
welcoming people, there was going to be less of a crowd than at a
Bangladesh vs. Netherlands cricket match on Indian turf. Unfortunately,
the hall was full of people, a parade of silks in all colours, and
laughter and chatter flowing around despite the hour and the din of the
music. I had to shade my eyes against the glare of the gold and diamonds
flashing at the neck, chest and earlobes of each and every one. People
greeted each other with enthusiasm, slapping each other’s backs, kissing
and hugging as if they were meeting them after years, which was
probably true. Marriages are the only occasions everyone turns up for.
No one wants to pass up the offer of free food.
I smiled at
everyone in general, and tried not to trip over my sari and high heels.
My mom was swept off into the growing crowd, but not without a warning
glance at me. Sheesh, I knew how to behave; I’m not a silly teenager.
After greeting and chatting briefly with all my aunts and uncles, I
found myself a secluded corner, and a cup of hot coffee, and decided to
watch the going-on’s from my vantage point. I told myself this was a
lesson on human relations.
The whole hall was the scene of intense
activity. The bride’s harassed-looking father hurried about, clutching
his silk dhoti with one hand, welcoming everyone. The groom’s relatives
swaggered about as if they owned the place. People bustled about,
drinking coffee, exchanging pleasantries and idle chitchat, and at the
dais, in the front, the groom sat with the pujari, repeating chants
after the former, looking very sombre. Probably, mourning for the last
few moments of his bachelorhood. The bride was still dressing up, I
guessed.
The women looked happy, probably because they didn’t have
to cook at least today, and the men looked happier, probably because
they didn’t have to eat their wives’ meals today. The sheer number of
relatives was overwhelming. One lady, who looked like she was a
contestant for the “biggest loser challenge”, ambushed me and claimed to
be my third aunt’s sister’s husband’s cousin. She pinched my cheeks
not-too-gently and commented that I reminded her of one of her uncle’s
sister’s daughters. I very much wanted to tell her who or rather, what,
she reminded me of, but I decided not to flap my gums. I was left
rubbing my sore cheek as she waddled away, but my relief at her
departure was short-lived as another one, who made the previous one look
thin, wandered up to me and ploughed on like a steam engine. I put on a
fake smile and listened to her, nodding my head, like I used to do in
college while pretending to listen to the lecturer. I interrupted her
droning with a “that sounds fascinating, but I really should go. I want
to help my mom with, err, the flowers.” She smiled and said, “of course,
what a responsible girl you are.” I walked away, rolling my eyes.
I
watched the ‘’ Kasi Yatra”, the swing ceremony, and the rest of the
fanfare from a safe distance. I had nothing against the customs, of
course, but I just wasn’t inclined to follow them myself.
Another
thing that irritated me was that they all knew I was, according to them,
of marriageable age. I was bombarded with some subtle, and some
not-so-subtle hints about how I should start shopping for my wedding
trousseau, learning how to cook, and how to show respect to elders, blah
blah. The shopping I wouldn’t have minded, but as for the cooking, my
culinary skills extended to making bread toast and frying eggs. I
side-tracked all their questions as politely as I could manage, and
slipped off to find a refuge before they started showing me photographs
of ‘prospective grooms’, all of whom, they assured me, were either good
looking, successful business executives, or big-muscled sports persons.
Nowhere were the words ‘smart’, ‘understanding’ or ‘practical’ used. One
of the women even claimed her son was shy and didn’t speak much to
girls. I didn’t point out that I had seen the very man flirting with one
of the serving girls in a corner of the kitchen.
I was just
starting to get really bored when the crowd parted, and I saw a tall,
handsome man in a black Sherwani, walking in from the door. He looked
rather dashing, like one of those old-time heroes. I imagined him in a
dark suit, at a club, saying “A vodka martini on the rocks, shaken, not
stirred”, Bond style. The girl in me gave a long, appreciative whistle,
and I tried not to drool. Finally, I told myself, this wedding is
starting to look interesting. I took a step forward but someone brushed
past me and I caught sight of a long mane of sleek black hair and a
rich, peacock blue designer sari, before the woman launched herself on
the guy,
my guy, and hugged him hard enough to make me grit my
teeth. He responded with equal fervour, laughing and hugging her. Strike
out, I thought gloomily.
I decided I had had enough of this
wedding, and was just about to find my mother and tell her I was
leaving, when everyone began to get excited. The time had come for the
grand finale-the tying of the ‘thaali’ around the bride’s neck. The
image of a noose came to my mind, but I edged forward with the others,
hoping to glimpse the momentous occasion. I caught sight of the bride’s
face as she sat patiently on her father’s lap, while her husband-to-be
continued the chanting, according to the pujari’s instructions, holding
the yellow thread in his hand. A kaleidoscope of emotions raced on her
face, as she stared up at her man, and he, down at her. In that moment
just before the pujari gave the signal to the drummers, they stared at
each other, two individuals giving up all bonds to become one, to live
together for the rest of their lives, to share joy, sorrow, and most
importantly, their love. And that was what, it suddenly struck me,
marriage was all about. Love. The love and the happiness they gave each
other and to others. He smiled at her, a radiant smile, and she gave him
one in return, while tears ran down her cheeks, as he tied the knot
around her neck three times, to the loud beating of drums, signifying
the union. Everyone cried, hugged and congratulated each other, and
suddenly they all seemed closer to each other, the bond running through
all of them clearly visible and strong. I saw my mother wipe a tear from
her eye, and lay her head on dad’s shoulder, as if imagining my
wedding. I couldn’t help the small lump in my throat.
Lunch was a
noisy affair, but the food was great and finger-licking tasty. I laughed
with my father as he made comments about how some people made kesari
that tasted like mud, giving a surreptitious glance at my mom. My mother
frowned at him, but I saw her lips twitch when he turned away. I was
amused, but kept my mouth shut. I was really enjoying myself. I actually
felt a twinge of regret the day had to come to an end.
My mom was surprised to see me smiling, genuinely, as we started to leave.
“So how did you find it?” she asked.
“Well,
it was boring at first, but I think the idea of marriage is catching up
to me after all. At least I managed to trip and fall only twice.”
My mom laughed. “Your grandmother will be so proud.”
I
gave another smile as we settled down in the car. It had turned out to
be quite an interesting day. And, best of all, I had finally managed to
work up a conversation with the good looking guy I’d seen. He gave me
his cell phone number and invited me to a cup of coffee. I sat back in
the car, contented with the world.
Oh, and that girl I saw with him? She was his sister.
Ranjini
Ragunath is a humourist, her works look at the simplicity of life
through comically dramatic eyes. Wedding vows first appeared in the
starting issues of the “New Woman Magazine” she can be found at
http://myworksnstuff.blogspot.in/
